In My Dreams (Tokio Hotel Poem)

I walk this world an empty shell
No real feelings and no real thoughts

Everything's automatic and I have no will of my own

I'm alive but I'm dead

My eyes are dull and my heart isn't beating at all

Tell me you love me and I'll walk away

Tell me you hate me and I'll leave you waiting

Doesn't matter what anyone says

Doesn't matter what anyone does

I'm broken and I can't be fixed

But alone in my dreams, I'm alive again

I can feel the world all around me,

And for a moment,

I know who I am

No longer am I simply a shadow of what I once was

I am real and I am myself

I am free and finally alive

But just when I've been put back together,

I open my eyes and reality shatters me again

Crushing me down with no hope for escape

They claim there's nothing wrong with me,

And maybe physically there's not

But they still have no expanation,

Of why I'm blind though I can see

I've tried everything I know,

But I'm still stuck in this sleeping state

I wish I could bring myself back to life,

But there's no way to save me now

I can remember when I was still alive,

It was so long ago but still the memories burn clear

The pain so great I fear I'll never forget

The day she left me standing alone

With her absence I felt so broken that I couldn't live

So I blocked out the pain, for another day

A day when I can fly away

But alone in my dreams, I'm alive again

I can feel what's all around me,

And just for a moment I know who I am

But just as I've been put back together,

I open my eyes and reality breaks me again,

Crushing me down with no hope for escape

Alone in my dreams I can feel again,

And for I once I can remember you without dying again

Alone in my dreams,

I'm alive again