guilt + *** = bad news

she is disappointed.
with herself.

she knew this would happen.
she let it happen.
without a care in the world.

she is selfish.
selfish for taking what we not rightfully hers.
and she did nothing to earn it.
she took something without permission.
something someone valued a lot.

a person.
to whom which was engaged to.
the person she loved too.
she loved him.
a lot.
and he loved her back.

but she couldn't take it.
she killed her.
accidentaly.
it wasn't on purpose.
even though she had always dreamed of doing it.
she'd never actually done it.

but now he knew.
and she knew that
he would never talk to her again.
(and its not like he ever did)

she is overwhelmed with guilt.
but it won't make a difference.
she will always be the same.
the same ignored,
stepped on.
"accidentaly" pushed over.
stuffed into a locker.
girl.