Useless

I know everyone thinks I’m overreacting,
I probably am but I’m still scared,
You act as if I’m everything to you, But when you were about to leave, Me forever I couldn't do anything,

So my question is now what use, Am I to you? I can hear what their, Thinking it’s like what their saying,
All this started happening when I,
Came around all this pain for me,
Your scared of what I could do to, Myself but honey I’m much more, Scared of what I could do to you,

I can hear what they whisper only, To me now does it sound like there, Screaming it out and no one seems, To notice that I am truly losing,
My mind and normally he would, Make me fine make me okay he is, A god to me he knows that well, At least he should so I’m left here,

With myself thinking all this through,
I don't want to speak about it, Because you will again blame, Yourself for this it really is amazing,
Of how helpless I am to myself and, Everyone I know I’m sorry I’m not, Perfect I’m sorry I’m not good, Enough I make mistakes that are,

Truly unnecessary but still I'm, Thinking if he were two seconds, Late you wouldn't be standing here,
Yes I know it’s not a dream I know, That you are here but it still pains,
Me that I just sat there and didn't,
Say anything to stop you I just let, You leave with suicide tucked neatly
Under your sleeve,