The Lost Letter.

Here’s your letter for Valentine’s Day, I hope you like it
It was some years since all of this happens
I was feeling down and,
Felt like the man overboard, fallen out the ship
Even though at that time I was degenerate that day
I realize a new relationship was made, but I was wasting time

I still act immature and often ask myself, "what's my age again?"
And when times nearly depart us, I realized how i miss you
I always asked myself what went wrong
Wanting to ask you to give me one good reason
For ignoring me,
But now I know because I’m a dumpweed and think aliens exist

So I started not being myself which is pathetic
Then soon the talking drifted away like having astehenia
Being weak and not being able to do anything right
Well, I'm lost without you and it’s very saddening
I just hope you don't leave me because I still care

Guys come and go in your life
I guessed as experience came you’re not an easy target anymore
Being dumped by boring guys and choosing the wrong ones
Lines like time to break up heard by you,
I just felt sorry and want to give you a new hope
But dammit, I just can’t

I often emo about this because I know I’m not enthused
I’m not that strong and I don’t do violence
I would just shut up and listen to your sober complains
I know you’re not like any of the girl next door

I saw you again in one of the rock shows
And I saw you with one of your mutt boyfriend
Isn’t obvious that he’s just using you
I felt reckless abandon when I saw the sight
Wanting to wish your boyfriend, "Happy holiday, you bastard!"
But I know you don’t like guys with dick lips
So I kept quiet and eventually you broke up with him
This makes me confusing and I felt sick like dysentary gary

I don’t want to be in a book of the story of a lonely guy
I got to act but not now, I’m such a pussy
I kept hearing online songs, to keep my mind off you
Like lemmings scattering around the area but end up at the same place to find food

When I have the guts, I’ll ask you to a first date
I hope you appreciate all the small things that have been given
Like giving you M&M’s to melt your heart but actually it melts in your mouth
And when it’s time to leave, I hope I received a smile and the words
"Please take me home"
I’m feeling this, this vibe that will soon come true

I'm sorry for insulting you, I really am
I was young back then and always think of my own carousel
Now, everytime i look for you, and if I see you I just want to make you smile
It all depends really whether you want to accept me
I promise you your life will be like a roller coaster
Even though there are ups and downs, it eventually will come to a stop
Well the world can be an ugly place,
But you are still beautiful to me.