everyday and more

the days go by and i wish it would stop
i cant handle the fact of how your not
thinking of all the confusion and hate
wondering if time is all to late
people try to break your fall
you hope it works but you cant give your all
the ones that try so hard to save you
you push away cuz you dont trust
you want to, but all you've had is lust
its not your fault your this way
sometimes people dont know what to say
so you go on still wondering why
they tell you let it go and just try
but when you cant see the light ahead
you try to move on, but inside you are dead
you stay cuz they wont let you go
but ist that what they are saying, i dont know
im sutck and i dont wanna get out
try and help me, but i still have doubt
my heart is cold and black
will you tell me what i lack?
look into my eyes
you know i cant take anymore lies
so what do i do now
cuz im tired of asking the same.... how?