I'm Sorry

I'm sorry

The darkness wraps ‘round my heart
Squeezing it so tight
I don’t think you understand
How hard the decision was that night

Tears were streaking down my cheeks
And tremors shook my frame
Shaking fingers grabbed the phone
And 9-11 I rang

I’m sorry that I called the cops
I’m sorry I was scared
I’m sorry that you were cuffed
I’m sorry that I cared

I’m sorry for my imperfections
I’m sorry that I “let you down”
I’m sorry that I did my best
To keep you safe and sound

I’m sorry that I’m not around
I’m sorry that I don’t call
I’m sorry that I’m not the friend:
The friend to break the fall

The darkness wraps ‘round my heart
Squeezing it so tight
I don’t think you understand
How hard the decision was that night

The are many things I fear
In this world I hold so dear
But none of them compare
To a loved one’s dead stare

You used to say I was your angel
But I always knew
That it wasn’t true
Unless I was the Devil’s angel on the ground

Do you see it now?
I was right, you were wrong
I’ve been a demon all along
Do you see it yet?

You’re burning hot and cold
You tell me not to feel guilty
Then you turn around
And tell me how I’ve let you down

I’m sorry for my imperfections
I’m sorry that I cared
I’m sorry that for everything
For everything I ever did
For trying to be there.

The darkness wraps ‘round my heart
Squeezing it so tight
I don’t think you understand
How hard the decision was that night

Tears were streaking down my cheeks
And tremors shook my frame
Shaking fingers grabbed the phone
And 9-11 I rang

I’m sorry that I let you down
I’m sorry for my mistakes
I’m sorry that I’ve caused you grief
I’m sorry that I’ve caused you pain

But I’m not sorry that you’re alive
And I’m not sorry that you’re my friend
And I’m not sorry that maybe, just maybe
This year won’t be “the end”

…
The darkness wraps ‘round my heart
Squeezing it so tight
I don’t think you understand
How hard the decision was that night