Here I Am

Here I am,
Sitting on the floor,
Rocking back and forth,
Wondering what wouldve happened if they never existed. 
Would life be better for me?

Here I am,
Laying down,
Crying myself to sleep,
Shedding tears over my fucked up life. 
Do you even care anymore?

Here I am,
Locked in my room,
Slitting my wrists,
Hating myself.  
If I could change, would I be your precious princess again?

Here I am,
Right next to you,
Watching,
As you say you love her,
And say she's precious,
And tell her all the things you don't tell me anymore. 
Why do you ignore me when she's around?

Here I am, 
Breath ragged,
My hands are shaking as I write this for you. 
Thinking of all the things you put me through, 
Wondering if it would be better if I shrivel up and die,
And using all my strength to try to not cry. 
And all the tear-stained letters to you are crumpled by the door,
Because I know that you don't love me anymore.