In This Hell

The skies are grey in this world of endless fear and regret.
The grief strikes hard and the pain is unbrearable.
It clouds my mind with endless thoughts of hate.
It blurs my eyes with the fury towards myself.
It’s too hard to forget and too hard to let go.
An eternity of lonliness tears me apart.
Happiness is just a dream.
Sorrow fills my soul until it hurts to breath.
The blame is on me and always will be.
In this empty shell is only dread.
My reality is my worst nightmares come true.
Neglect is all I know and all I feel.
I’m sorry for being this way.
It won’t die.
It feels like no one understands.
Im invisible to the living.
Just a lost soul left to drift in the eternal darkness,
Searching for something that isn’t there.
The light shines bright and blinds me.
It’s too far ahead to reach,
And becomes further and further with every blink of my eyes.
There’s no one to cry to and nowhere to run to.
Locked up in this hell.