dirtydirtydirty.

Searching finding losing.
Lost again, you lost him again.
Touched him; you touched him with your lips hands legs; dirtydirtydirty.
Lost again, you'll lose him again.
It doesn't quite work like that; magic in the dark fades in the light.
Especially in that dirty dirty spotlight.
Especially in that dirty dirty spotlight.
Up on the table, exhibitionist.
Almost kissed, almost dirtydirty kissed.

Losing finding searching.
You'll keep searching even after you've found him, just because he's not what you want to find.
You know what you want to find and what he'll bring.
& once he's found all searching will cease with the blink of an eye and all losing will cease without so much as a cry and the finding'll keep coming.
Finding the rest that's gone and him and finding that there's more to yourself than the dirtydirtydirty.
Almost kissed, almost dirtydirty kissed.