I Thought

I thought I was friendless,
But you were always there.
I thought I was worthless,
Yet you always cared.
And now that I see my foolish mistake,
I know that to you I must've been a pain in the butt.
Still you stayed with me through my pain,
You were there when my wrist I wanted to cut.
Killing myself was never the answer,
And now, as I die, I know I was dumb.
As my blood pools around me,
I somehow remember how you always snapped your gum--
You patience wearing thin.
My whole life's memories are flashing by;
Those times I wore only black,
But you still stopped me to say hi.
And now my final moments are here,
I realize now I don't want to go!
At my funeral will anyone shed a tear?
I once thought that dying would be my way out
I know now that I'm right on track
For a world without friends: and I mean you.
To think that I thought
that I hated you and you hated me
Which was the reason why you and I always fought.
I have realized why you got so upset
I wouldn't listen to the good things in life
So now that I'm dying I'll try to forget
Everything I thought.
But you:
I'll remember you.