Growing Pains

I see you sitting on the rooftop
you seem so lonely.
Would you like my company?
Or would you push me away?
Again.

In this world of yours,
I am the outcast,
the girl no one notices.
Maybe if I cry.
I'm holding on by this string of hope

All the things in your mind,
like wedding rings, and guns,
tied to your heart by her bouquet.
Your a desert away from us.
The stars seem so far away.

Little reminders of you
and there's nothing I can do.
You're so far away
I can't reach you.
Would you take my hand even if I could?
From hundreds of miles away?

The weather is changing
I can't seem to hide from you or her gaze.
But all eyes are on you.
Would anyone notice my tears?

The gray rooftops, a thing of the past,
like the boxes you would hide behind.
Now I sit on the roof.
Your footsteps are so very far from me.
You've grown up,
I've only grown.
When you come how will you notice?

Your harsh words and stern gaze ignore me.
Things haven't changed
Will I understand when I'm ten?
When I'm fifteen, eight teen, or twenty?
Will you be gone for good before that?
The church bells will be ringing,
this time for sorrow.

You've grown up,
I've only grown.
Your footsteps fade away,
but the memory stains it,
as if they were on the moon,
where the stars watch over you.
A whole million miles away.

All the things in your mind,
I can't comprehend.
I'm just not there.

I'm just not there