Whenever

Whenever I visit you,
you tell me you love me.
Whenever I go to sleep I see your face in my dreams.
Whenever I think of you,
I remember the good and bad memories.
Whenever I hide my sadness,
I know it makes me weaker.
Whenever I think about the bad times,
I wanna' cry.
Whenever I think about the good times,
I wanna' laugh and smile.
Most memories are just too sad,
especially when you say I meant nothing to you,
The pain and suffering is unbearable,
you hurt me,
in a way no person should be hurt.
I feel guilty to say this but whenever I think of you
I feel compelled to say that I'm ashamed of being your daughter.
No matter what I did it was never good enough for you.
I'll finally say this....
I hope you won't hate me
but most of the time that I think of you.....
All the stuff I suffered with you,
grow profoundly...
and I feel myself weakening more and more each day.

Tell me what you guys think:)
~Francis~