Numb

First I was in great pain,
All night I couldn't sleep,
I couldn't think,
I couldn't explain,
why I was in pain.

I tore up my healed scars,
thinking I'd never see you,
I cried out for help,
but no one could hear,
my silent cries or terror.

My eyes on the hilt of the blade,
as I lowered it to my wrist,
I slowly drug the blade over my veins,
the blood began to pour out of me like water,
I watched it cascade to the floor and make a wide river,
I had cut deeper than intended,
my world began to fade out and go black,
I didn't care about the yelling outside the door,
or the sirens coming to the house,
I was fading away from reality,
I closed my eyes and began to float off the floor,
out of my body and into the air higher and higher I went,
looking down at my dead body so still and numb,
numbed by losing you,numbed by my lose,
I hear the door get busted in,
the perimedics rush in filling the small room,
soon I felt a sting on my chest and heart,
the harsh shock bringing me back to my senses,
my body,
my life without you,
I couldn't remember the rest,
I woke up in a hospital bed,
my body limp I knew I wasn't going to make it,
I could feel it,
I closed my eyes and they never opened again,
Good-bye forever my love.
Good-bye!