I'm Alive

I'm Alive,
but yet im slipping away.
I'm getting close to THAT day.
The day where i lose myself,
lose all my control,
and then I'm left,
just dying on the floor.
I'm Alive,
and I'm barely hanging on,
I wanna kill myself but i dont have the time.
The time of happy thoughts,
and the one joyful wish,
that people want to come true.
I'm Alive,
but dont wanna be.
I dont have the pride to open my eyes and see,
to see the world around me,
but I know what people think.
They want me GONE,
for good,
no more me,
they just want me out of their lives,
They dont want me to be Alive,
and neither do i.