i guess that's just my life.

you're gone.
that's all i can think.
you were my shelter.
you invited me to come.
i could have.
if it weren't for them.
i've finally decided..
to start being real.
to lose the fake smile.
and let the sadness show through.
the smile was pointless anyway.
so transparent.
but i guess it was enough.
to fool the world.
although
it might not have worked
so well
if they had cared
enough to ppay attention.
but
that's just life.
for me anyways.
other people have it so well.
they dont have to struggle
to make it through each day.
the headache's still there.
who throws cats in people's faces?
of course he's my neighbor.
pretty much my brother.
but i guess that's my life.