Sometimes

Sometimes I just lay down and think. About nothing really but I let my mind wander elsewhere. And if for a moment I feel like I am free. Free from all the noise. The door locks and slamming doors. Free from all the fighting and crying. It's like I'm in another world. I don't want to come back to reality. It's frightening. This world moves too fast. Or I'm too slow, either way I need to go back. I need to drift off into nothingness. I need to be able to control what happens and what doesn't. Who loves and who gets heartbroken. I need to fall asleep, and dream forever.