You are gone

I woke up, you were gone
The moment you left me alone
The music played, the phone rang
I didn't answer, I wasn't there
I ran away, didn't want to see you
Didn't want to live with the truth
The one I couldn't stand.
I want to tell you about the world
I want to express what I feel
I can't , it seems that I lost all my will
I want to cry and I can't even do that
I don't know what to do
I Write
I Write
Drowning everything in a paper that will put on the trash
Why?