I Hate You/I Love You

Everything was fine,
until they came around,
I’m ignored, defeated, broken.
You still laugh with them,
completely oblivious to my pain.

I thought nothing could tear us apart,
I thought you were my savior.
At times I wonder if you remember anything about me,
or remember I’ve been hurt enough times before.
You’ve been hurt too, but now you’re hurting others.

If someone doesn’t share your views you penalize them,
if someone says something you don’t like, you ignore them.
This is normal human behavior I know but still,
you act higher than everyone else,
and if they don’t follow you, you leave them behind.

I’m jealous,
I’m ignored,
I’m your best-friend,
or maybe,
not anymore?

Have I been replaced?
Have I become just an object?
Am I just there when they make you angry?
Am I just an excuse?
Do you care?

I don’t want to bother,
But I do.
I love you, you’re so dear to me,
I hate you, you make me feel so bad.
I want to cry, but I don’t, I just keep pushing forward hoping everything works out okay.