I Am Losing

i wake up each morning,
to ringing in my ears,
and a whisper in my head,
i stumble to the bathroom,
an look into the mirror of hidden truth,
i see what ive become,
the monster you made me be,
the darkness that resides insde,
frozen,
lifeless,
a beaten down,
hopeless,
pitiful,
reflection of what i use to be,
only this time,
you cant pick up the pieces,
cant make it right,
you tilt the bottle,
an drink your sorrowless wake away,
hoping that once you've woken again,
things would be different,
but,
tomorrow never comes,
you dont open your eyes,
the olive skin turns pale,
cold to touch,
now your gone.