Hurt and Pain Pays Off

How can you beat
and hit me with so much heat

that I just don't understand
how you and your hands

can hurt me and yourself
like you weren't in your past selves

now where did you go?
the man that i used to know

he is no where in sight
maybe its just this bright light

that's blinding my eyes

could it be the thing of all things?
whoever whatever that could make sing

and make me happy enough to dance
right here where i stand in my favorite pants

you know just leave it alone
hes not worth anything but stone

rough and cold
so soiled and old

in the dirt which was deep
were i found him seeping

further down out from sight
so i gave him a chance and all he did was bite

like a dog not trained well
that's all men are dogs that sell

with their looks and class
those are lies not truth

so I'm walking away now
thinking that my life will pay for itself how?

in happiness.... now that I'm free
and I'll be all that I can be...

Myself and happy
that's the way it should be :D