Look into my heart

How do I find You,
how do I see?
That You never really left me?
Speak to me no,
speak to my heart,
so I will know,
we are not far apart.
You say You'll keep Your word, but,
Why do I have doubts?
Why can't I understand,
that You hold me always, in Your hand?
So much hurt, so much pain.
I don't know if I can go on with this game.
you hold my heart, You hold my soul,
all of this driving a hole,
into my heart, that only You truly know.
Plesase, just somehow tell me
what You have to say,
Just let me know that everything is going
to be okay.