Today

Today...
...I have no feeling. I am completely numb.
I want to cry so badly, but the tears won't come.
I want to cut myself so deep, but my pain cannot be forgotten, so I don't even try.
I have no motivation; I want to do nothing but don't want to do nothing either.
Everything...
...is going around me; nothing stays; it all fades away.
I feel like I could sleep forever, but I know that sleep will not come easily tonight.
I feel so much, but I am unable to release these emotions.
I know I should let all of this go; It is tied so deep that it will stay with me always.