Another poem about my life

Many times have I felt a pain in my heart,
And it seems like it has been here from the start.
The tears I've shed,
The lies I've been told,
The noose around my neck,
My life had gotten old.

I tried to embrace life,
I tried to find a friend
I tried to find the light
But all I found was a shattered me before its end.

It wasnt me
it was the drugs
It wasnt them
i couldnt be loved
It wasnt you
that brought me here
You are the one who got me away

The nights sitting up
All fucked up
and i had nowhere to go
The pain inside
the hate that i would hide
And the pills kept me numb and cold

But it was you who saved me
Because life had raped me
You got me out of my hole
And for that i will love you more than you will ever know

Pain i couldnt feel
it was just a pulse
and love seemed distant and unreal

But then i found you
And I know ive thanked you
But that just isnt enough

I will stay by you forever
No matter what the weather
No matter day
or whoever may try to come our way

I love you my cupcake
and as i always will

They may hate us
I say so be it
You have made me whole
They can get jealous when they see us
but hell is where they can go

Life now is fun
I dont need the drugs
Because i found the one i need
Her name is Natiesha
No girl can bet her
And i am hers for ETERNITY