Impossible

Being alone brings me peace
My room is my sanctuary
Crying helps my feelings show
Screaming helps me disappear from this that causes me pain
I've stopped cutting so the scars weren't visable
Sometimes I wish I could close my eyes
And hope things will better
Acceptance is what I strive for
But after 15 years of trying
It's become impossible
And I sink deeper into this hole
That is impossible to climb out of
You make it impossible to try to actually be happy
Becasue of you, impossible has been forced into my vocabulary
You've made impossible to feel
And you've made it impossible to do anything.