Love
Was it me?
And me alone?
Who felt this way.
Who felt the pain?
Was it me?
And maybe you.
Who felt as if our love was true?
I won't lie now,
Nothing to lose.
I did love you.
I don't lie dude.
I dream of you,
And thought of you.
Hell, I even fucked to you.
I stuck my fingers down my pats,
Dreaming it was you.
I talked about you constantly.
And felt your kisses in my dreams.
You held my hand in selfish woe,
And brought me to my sacred home.
I've never loved.
I'd never cheat.
I wanted you and you alone.
YOu lied to me.
So many times.
But I pretended you were mine.
No thought of cheating,
In my mind.
I tried to keep you close to me.
So i could hear you fucking breathe.
You were my only,
Now we're done.
And I miss your fucking stupid hum.
I miss your stupid face sometimes.
I miss your stupid hair.
I miss your lips,
And miss your hands.
I miss your lies,
And miss your stares.
You lied to me so many times.
Told me your a boy.
That's fine.
I'm pansexual,
I am for the heart.
I don't love you for your body parts.
You are a girl and I accept.
You're stuck in the wrong body.
I wish you knew.
That I'll love you through and through.
I can't believe it's fucking over.
Gone into the past.
To remember you on rainy days.
And years to come that follow.
Boy, I'll miss you.
That's for sure.
Ill muss your fucking voice.
I'll miss the way you laugh sometimes.
The way you bubble over.
I'll miss the way you say my name.
Make fun of my word FANtastic.
I'll miss the joy that over came.
As you stepped right toward me.
I'll miss the days that you liked me,
And days I did not know.
I'll miss the day you told my friend
You were 'attracted'. to me .
I'll miss the day I kissed you.
In that girls backyard.
I'll miss the days I spent with you,
Even the ones that hurt.
The one that made me feel like shit,
The ones to make me cry.
I'll even miss the days of fighting.
Fighting for your life.
I wanted you so fucking badly.
But you'll never see.
Boy I love you for your flaws.
I see your inner beauty.
I see this light,
This blinding light.
Of true pure, unrated passion.
Of love, and hate and woe and bliss.
And everything that matters.
You made me realize,
Who I am.
Brought me back to me.
Reunited me with my blade.
Thank you sweet angel.
Oh sweet baby.
I've never felt this way before.
And boy I was scared.
My love for you has been put off.
With no love coming back.
I'll wait for you,
No matter what.
Because my heart's a wreck.
I remember every waking moment,
I had spent with you,
I can remember everything.
That led me to this day.
The day we stopped.
The day we started.
Then started again.
I remember every moment.
But I doubt you fucking can.
I loved you boy.
Oh! How I loved you.
Even for your lies.
You were my only.
Are my only.
My first real love.
YOu are my breath.
You are my heart.
I feel you in my chest.
I fell in love,
With the unloveable.
Fucked up like the rest.
Everyone said don't go back,
He'll hurt you even worse.
I don't care...even to this day.
You were worth it for the pain.
I would torture myself,
With thoughts of you.
The thoughts that led me here.
The thoughts that made my cry at night.
The thoughts that I hold dear.
Maybe one day you'll realize,
How great I truly am,
And hopefully I won't move on.
Before the time shall pass.
I loved you man.
Oh, how I loved you.
Well fuck man I still do.
I wanted you all over me.
I wanted you to see my body.
As it is itself.
I wanted you to see my scars,
The parts of me I hate.
The new fresh wounds.
I perfectly cut.
To make myself feel sane.
I love you boy,
I really do.
I wish that you could see.
Or maybe love me for my crazy.
Not just for my looks.
I wish that you could love me.
But it's probably just me.
I'm ugly,
Worthless,
Stupid,
Shit.
I don't deserve your love.
You are to grand for a whore like me.
Too beautiful to love.
I'm not your girl.
And I shall never be
But I can always dream.
One day I hope you realize.
You're gorgeous.
FUn, incredibly sweet.
You're amazing at your arts.
You're voice is grand.
And words are pure.
You are the best I've met.
I'll kill for you.
I'd die for you.
I've even cut my thigh for you.
I love you babe.
I love you boy.
I love you more than love could know.
I love you even if my heart gets broken yet again.
By the way...I love you.
I really really do.
And me alone?
Who felt this way.
Who felt the pain?
Was it me?
And maybe you.
Who felt as if our love was true?
I won't lie now,
Nothing to lose.
I did love you.
I don't lie dude.
I dream of you,
And thought of you.
Hell, I even fucked to you.
I stuck my fingers down my pats,
Dreaming it was you.
I talked about you constantly.
And felt your kisses in my dreams.
You held my hand in selfish woe,
And brought me to my sacred home.
I've never loved.
I'd never cheat.
I wanted you and you alone.
YOu lied to me.
So many times.
But I pretended you were mine.
No thought of cheating,
In my mind.
I tried to keep you close to me.
So i could hear you fucking breathe.
You were my only,
Now we're done.
And I miss your fucking stupid hum.
I miss your stupid face sometimes.
I miss your stupid hair.
I miss your lips,
And miss your hands.
I miss your lies,
And miss your stares.
You lied to me so many times.
Told me your a boy.
That's fine.
I'm pansexual,
I am for the heart.
I don't love you for your body parts.
You are a girl and I accept.
You're stuck in the wrong body.
I wish you knew.
That I'll love you through and through.
I can't believe it's fucking over.
Gone into the past.
To remember you on rainy days.
And years to come that follow.
Boy, I'll miss you.
That's for sure.
Ill muss your fucking voice.
I'll miss the way you laugh sometimes.
The way you bubble over.
I'll miss the way you say my name.
Make fun of my word FANtastic.
I'll miss the joy that over came.
As you stepped right toward me.
I'll miss the days that you liked me,
And days I did not know.
I'll miss the day you told my friend
You were 'attracted'. to me .
I'll miss the day I kissed you.
In that girls backyard.
I'll miss the days I spent with you,
Even the ones that hurt.
The one that made me feel like shit,
The ones to make me cry.
I'll even miss the days of fighting.
Fighting for your life.
I wanted you so fucking badly.
But you'll never see.
Boy I love you for your flaws.
I see your inner beauty.
I see this light,
This blinding light.
Of true pure, unrated passion.
Of love, and hate and woe and bliss.
And everything that matters.
You made me realize,
Who I am.
Brought me back to me.
Reunited me with my blade.
Thank you sweet angel.
Oh sweet baby.
I've never felt this way before.
And boy I was scared.
My love for you has been put off.
With no love coming back.
I'll wait for you,
No matter what.
Because my heart's a wreck.
I remember every waking moment,
I had spent with you,
I can remember everything.
That led me to this day.
The day we stopped.
The day we started.
Then started again.
I remember every moment.
But I doubt you fucking can.
I loved you boy.
Oh! How I loved you.
Even for your lies.
You were my only.
Are my only.
My first real love.
YOu are my breath.
You are my heart.
I feel you in my chest.
I fell in love,
With the unloveable.
Fucked up like the rest.
Everyone said don't go back,
He'll hurt you even worse.
I don't care...even to this day.
You were worth it for the pain.
I would torture myself,
With thoughts of you.
The thoughts that led me here.
The thoughts that made my cry at night.
The thoughts that I hold dear.
Maybe one day you'll realize,
How great I truly am,
And hopefully I won't move on.
Before the time shall pass.
I loved you man.
Oh, how I loved you.
Well fuck man I still do.
I wanted you all over me.
I wanted you to see my body.
As it is itself.
I wanted you to see my scars,
The parts of me I hate.
The new fresh wounds.
I perfectly cut.
To make myself feel sane.
I love you boy,
I really do.
I wish that you could see.
Or maybe love me for my crazy.
Not just for my looks.
I wish that you could love me.
But it's probably just me.
I'm ugly,
Worthless,
Stupid,
Shit.
I don't deserve your love.
You are to grand for a whore like me.
Too beautiful to love.
I'm not your girl.
And I shall never be
But I can always dream.
One day I hope you realize.
You're gorgeous.
FUn, incredibly sweet.
You're amazing at your arts.
You're voice is grand.
And words are pure.
You are the best I've met.
I'll kill for you.
I'd die for you.
I've even cut my thigh for you.
I love you babe.
I love you boy.
I love you more than love could know.
I love you even if my heart gets broken yet again.
By the way...I love you.
I really really do.