Suicidal Memories

Breathe in, breathe out.
My body is a friction.
Breathe in, breathe out.
So much inner confliction.
Tears of hatred, tears of sorrow.
So messed up on the inside
You don't even take a notice.
Your suppose to be there.
A shoulder to cry on,
A pillow to scream in.
But your not...
Breathe in, breathe out.
My body is a friction.
Breathe in, breathe out.
So much inner confliction.
Hit the wall, break a knuckle
Do it again, know it feels good.
Chew it til it bleeds.
Does'nt help if it doesnt bleed.
Breathe in, breathe out.
My body is a friction.
Breathe in, breathe out.
So much inner confliction.
Gotta feel high, almost take my life.
Dig it deep and swallow those pills.
Happy you drove me this far?
Don't even notice ive gone.
Breathe in, breathe out.
My body is a friction.
Breathe in, breathe out.
So much inner confliction.
Wrap it around thick, tie it up tight.
Bruise and turn purple, im doing it just right.
Leave my pedestal, i'll fly and never fall.
Who needs wings? Im no Angel.
Breathe in, breathe out.
My body is a friction.
Breathe in, breathe out.
So much inner confliction.
Standing tall, no gasping breaths.
Do jumpers scream?
Jump now and i'll forever live in my dreams.
Im shaky and i'll fall, your not going to catch me.
(Don't)
Don't perform CPR on something thats long been dead.
Don't save a life that does'nt want you to live.
Breathe in, breathe out.
My body is a friction.
Breathe in, breathe out.
So much inner confliction.
Suffocate, suffocate, breathing is to live.
Roses on my casket, you'll look at me one final time.
Am I breathing?
No, im not living.
Are you mourning? Or are you laughing?
Crying because my life has ended?
Crying because im finally gone.
Look in the mirror and i'll be at your shoulder,
Haunting you with my suicidal memories.