You Never Knew
I bet you didn't know
That it was impossible for me to lie to you
That when I felt tempted I'd just keep my mouth shut
That you'd usually get the truth out of me
That you always pressured for it when I wanted you to the most
That I always wanted you to know all along
I bet you didn't know
That I remember I met you in seventh grade
That you were drawing a logo for Fall Out Boy in the middle of some class movie
That I teased you about it constantly
That I thought Fall Out Boy was too girly of a band for you
That I thought you were pretty cool for it anyway
I bet you didn't know
That I remember all of the little things
That I never thought it was your spit in the middle of the table when Liz pointed it out
That I laughed every time someone said "choices" because I thought of the inspirational pose you'd always do
That math in eighth grade was my favorite because you and I sat next to Nathan and Stephanie who argued with lame comebacks while we cracked up
That I told you I liked you the day before you went on vacation with a small note card and a message written in red pen
I bet you didn't know
That I never found it odd that we didn't talk on the phone
That it was never weird when we didn't hang out outside of school
That I was content just talking to you on the computer
That I loved our competitive arguments over who was right
That I knew I was always wrong but I kept going anyways because I knew we'd laugh about it later
I bet you didn't know
That I thought the lyrics you wrote were spectacular
That I was envious that you could teach yourself guitar so easily
That I still have the guitar demos you sent me after recording them way back when
That I was pissed when your parents made you join robotics instead of guitar lessons, and you gave in
That I always thought you were highly musically talented even if you didn't believe it yourself
I bet you didn't know
That after our "discussion" a month ago, I cried
That I couldn't even tell my close friends because I didn't trust them
That I managed to calm down through talking to people I don't completely know
That I wanted to talk to you all along
That I knew I couldn't because you'd get irritated with me
I bet you didn't know
That I still miss you like hell
That I'm pretty convinced you don't care anymore
That I don't want to be the one to crack first and talk to you
That it kills me a little to see your name online
That I want you to miss me first
I bet you didn't know
That I'm trying to open up
That I'm trying to trust more people
That I'm trying to get a little closer to my other friends
That I'm succeeding at least a little bit
That I'm getting over this lump in my chest little by little
Because I know you want nothing to do with me
That it was impossible for me to lie to you
That when I felt tempted I'd just keep my mouth shut
That you'd usually get the truth out of me
That you always pressured for it when I wanted you to the most
That I always wanted you to know all along
I bet you didn't know
That I remember I met you in seventh grade
That you were drawing a logo for Fall Out Boy in the middle of some class movie
That I teased you about it constantly
That I thought Fall Out Boy was too girly of a band for you
That I thought you were pretty cool for it anyway
I bet you didn't know
That I remember all of the little things
That I never thought it was your spit in the middle of the table when Liz pointed it out
That I laughed every time someone said "choices" because I thought of the inspirational pose you'd always do
That math in eighth grade was my favorite because you and I sat next to Nathan and Stephanie who argued with lame comebacks while we cracked up
That I told you I liked you the day before you went on vacation with a small note card and a message written in red pen
I bet you didn't know
That I never found it odd that we didn't talk on the phone
That it was never weird when we didn't hang out outside of school
That I was content just talking to you on the computer
That I loved our competitive arguments over who was right
That I knew I was always wrong but I kept going anyways because I knew we'd laugh about it later
I bet you didn't know
That I thought the lyrics you wrote were spectacular
That I was envious that you could teach yourself guitar so easily
That I still have the guitar demos you sent me after recording them way back when
That I was pissed when your parents made you join robotics instead of guitar lessons, and you gave in
That I always thought you were highly musically talented even if you didn't believe it yourself
I bet you didn't know
That after our "discussion" a month ago, I cried
That I couldn't even tell my close friends because I didn't trust them
That I managed to calm down through talking to people I don't completely know
That I wanted to talk to you all along
That I knew I couldn't because you'd get irritated with me
I bet you didn't know
That I still miss you like hell
That I'm pretty convinced you don't care anymore
That I don't want to be the one to crack first and talk to you
That it kills me a little to see your name online
That I want you to miss me first
I bet you didn't know
That I'm trying to open up
That I'm trying to trust more people
That I'm trying to get a little closer to my other friends
That I'm succeeding at least a little bit
That I'm getting over this lump in my chest little by little
Because I know you want nothing to do with me
♠ ♠ ♠
Last one, I promised myself.This hasn't been edited at all.
It was written in the middle of the night for venting purposes, not to be a true representation of what I can write.
Everything's a true story.