the fickle will be the end of me.

the fact that i don’t know who i am anymore scares me.

who to love…

who to care for…

what to say and who to tell?

i want to burst

i can’t take it anymore

my heart wants to burst and at the same time, i want to cry

i want to love him, i can’t feel anything anymore.

i feel like i am cut in two. my heart can’t handle it anymore.

i want to scream.

i have nothing to say.

people want me to vent, to express myself but how?

everything is empty,

everyword i express-its meaningless

i feel pain, i feel the goose bumps raised on my skin.

at the same time, i feel a void.

i feel empty, like i can’t comprehend any emotion anymore.

its like he confides in me. several people confide in me.

but i can’t help it.

i have no trust….

this is empty ramblings.

its all pointless…….