do you?

Do you know what it feels like getting so close to someone you can tell them anything?
Do you know what it feels like to be loved by that person?
To be loved by someone who isn't your family?
Do you know what it feels like to be the only person they can trust to lean on or use as a helping hand or a shoulder to cry on?
Do you know what it feels like to have fun with that person and to know you can be yourself around them no matter what?
Of course if your reading this you might know what I am speaking of.
But lets try and take a twist
Do you know what it feels like to be pushed away by your best friend in the whole world?
Do you know what it feels like to know you're no longer their helpin hand or your shoulder now has no use for them?
Do you know what it's like to know this supposed best friend can no longer trust you with her secrets because she feels you'll get upset and run out of her life just as fast as you walked in?
Do you know what it's like to find out from a mutual friend what the other is thinking or holding in?
Do you know what it's like to know the only person you can talk to is changing right in front of your eyes?
Do you know how it feels to think you are doing good for someone but in return you don't get a "thank you" or "you really care"?
How about that person always canceling the ideas you thought were good?
Do you know what it feels like knowing someone is making a huge mistake and the only thing that will come of that mistake is a mass heartbreak?
Do you know what it feels like to know when your friend is hurt you can't feel what a best friend should feel because the only thought that your mind can tumble around is "I told you so" or "I knew it would happen"
Do you know what it feels like to lose hope and trust in that person you used to care so deeply for?
Do you know what it feels like to know you and this person are no longer like 2 peas in a pod but almost a trillion world's apart
If you don't know what I'm talking about
I hope and pray you never will
Because I do, unfortunately, know this feeling
And to put it in the most simplest words possible: IT SUCKS!
And on the other hand
If you do know what this feeling is then, babe , I hope and pray we will both make it out of this battlefield without losing a friend or ourselves.
Best Wishes
<3 Jazmin