I hate it

I hate it
the way my heart beat
increases
goes faster
everytime I see your face
Every fucking time I read your name

I hate it
when those memories come back
remembering the look in your eyes
the words you said
"Damn you're always on my mind"

I hate it
when I wish things hadn't changed
when I realize I am so not
over you

Fuck my life

I hate it
when you act like you care
when I relive those memories in my head
the feeling of your touch
the feeling of you
in my hand

I hate it
how I gave you everything
how you gave me nothing
how I am here all alone
how I feel so fucking empty

I hate it
that I still love you

I hate it
that I wait for your text
saying "I want you back"

I hate it
that I would give anything
to have you in my arms again

Fuck my life