My Friend

My Lost Friend
I cry silently,
A tear rolls down my face,
My mother goes on with the tragic news,
I can’t stand it anymore, so I run.
I run as fat as my legs could go,
I ran with speed and sadness,
I run past the Drug Store,
Oh, so many memories lay there.

I run past the pool,
I can see your face full of wonder,
I see myself laughing as you tell me joke,
You could always make me laugh on an overcast day.
I run past the park,
It makes me smile,
When we were seven this was our home,
Spending idle hours playing on the swings,
And drinking Sunny D,
Oh, I wish that you were here still!
In sadness I swing,
I remember pumping my legs so hard to reach the sky,
I remember you in the sandbox wanting to build something great,
I knew you would do it one day,
Too bad that day will never come.

I remember when you looked at me in sadness,
All because of a bad grade,
Now I can only see you as an idiot,
Letting weight control you like a puppet,
I can see you striving to be beautiful,
Only killing yourself along the way,
Oh if I could see you now I would be disgusted.

I get up from the bench where I sit,
I look around our old oasis,
I run to the school where we went for six years,
I look around the classrooms where we sat,
Memories flood me,
I cry in the hallway,
People are staring at me,
I don’t care,
I just miss you.

I run again,
I run past the old bell tower,
I run past the preschool where we met,
Memories flood me,
Some are happy some are sad,
But all make me cry.

I sprint past our school,
My school now,
Anger floods me,
That was where you lost your judgment on what’s right and wrong,
You were flooded with temptations,
Drugs and Alcohol,
You did both,
Then your ‘friend’ told you to starve yourself,
So you did,
And now you lay dead.

Look where drugs got you,
Look what the Anorexia did,
Nothing ever will replace your place in my heart,
You will always be that seven-year-old,
Trying to make something great.