If You Really Knew Me
If you really knew me
You would know that my dad died
If you really knew me
You would know that he was a drug addict
And an alcoholic since before I was born
If you really knew me
You would know that I have a mom with a disease that makes it hard to do anything
If you really knew me
You would know that my brother has grown away from the family
And that he hates my mom
But really loves us deep down
If you really knew me
You would know that every fight, every bad word said to me, every little comment festers like
an infected splinter and hurts
If you really knew me
You would know that I started cutting in 9th grade, even though I always thought I was
stronger than that
If you really knew me
You would know that I wish that my brother would get along with my family better
If you really knew me
You would know that I wish I didn’t have to work around my mum’s disease sometimes
If you really knew me
You would know that I feel like people always expect me to be happy
If you really knew me
You would know that I’m a nice, forgiving person, but is taken advantage of
If you really knew me
You would know that there are so many things I want to say, but never do
If you really knew me
You would know that I’m too scared to cry
If you really knew me
You would know that I was depressed for three years
But knew how to cover it up
To the point where I thought I really was happy
If you really knew me
You would know, that I love every single friend I have, even the ones I’m fighting with
You would know that I support you in whatever you strive for
You would know that I always try to keep you away from the bad things
You would know that I shoulder most of the bad things so no one else has to experience
them
You would know
That I am me
And I am not afraid to show it.
You would know that my dad died
If you really knew me
You would know that he was a drug addict
And an alcoholic since before I was born
If you really knew me
You would know that I have a mom with a disease that makes it hard to do anything
If you really knew me
You would know that my brother has grown away from the family
And that he hates my mom
But really loves us deep down
If you really knew me
You would know that every fight, every bad word said to me, every little comment festers like
an infected splinter and hurts
If you really knew me
You would know that I started cutting in 9th grade, even though I always thought I was
stronger than that
If you really knew me
You would know that I wish that my brother would get along with my family better
If you really knew me
You would know that I wish I didn’t have to work around my mum’s disease sometimes
If you really knew me
You would know that I feel like people always expect me to be happy
If you really knew me
You would know that I’m a nice, forgiving person, but is taken advantage of
If you really knew me
You would know that there are so many things I want to say, but never do
If you really knew me
You would know that I’m too scared to cry
If you really knew me
You would know that I was depressed for three years
But knew how to cover it up
To the point where I thought I really was happy
If you really knew me
You would know, that I love every single friend I have, even the ones I’m fighting with
You would know that I support you in whatever you strive for
You would know that I always try to keep you away from the bad things
You would know that I shoulder most of the bad things so no one else has to experience
them
You would know
That I am me
And I am not afraid to show it.