To Gabriel;

I’ve never been able to decipher
The words you’ve said, and if you love her.
I’ve never cracked the code,
Of your smile, of your beautiful eyes.

I’ve tried to ignore all those times,
That you were flying high.
I tried not to lose my mind,
When we finally said goodbye.

You said you loved me
Every day.
And if it was possible,
We’d always find a way.

I know you’ve loved before,
And I know you’ll love again.
But I never wanted the day to come,
When everything we had would end.

I miss you in a way I can’t explain,
I love you with words
That only bring me pain.

I’m angrier than I’ve ever been,
At myself, and at you.
I finally snapped,
And now I’m broken in two.

I don’t know what came over me,
Or if it’s been there all along.
But the way you spoke of her…
Brought on a hateful song.

I wish I had just kept quiet,
But then I start to wonder.
We’re just a couple of teenagers,
What more is there to ponder?

I still don’t know all the secrets,
I still don’t know if it was all lies.
I still don’t understand,
If it was even love I saw in your eyes.

But I was so sure…
I was so sure we’d last.
And then I was the one who plummeted
And now everything we had is in the past.