Dont Forget Me
I remember when I was the baby girl that you used swing back and forth,
Just wrapped in your protection and warmth
When you used to wake up at all hours of the night to make sure me and my stomach were alright.
Four years later I aged and I grew
Just a little toddler standing at 3 foot 2
You carried me on your feet and put training wheels on my bike
I rode away showing off thinking that nothing could ruin this night
as I came home and realized you were gone, I thought nothing off it
That maybe you just went to the store.
Only to realize 2 months later, that daddy was gone some more
I remember my mother holding me at night as i fell asleep
Only to wake up 5 hours later, hearing the floorboards creak
I squinted my eyes and pretended to be at rest until he walked out of the room
I shook my mother awake the next morning with excitement smiling widely and saying "guess what mommy? daddy came home last night!"
I didn't understand why my mother wasn't sharing the same enthusiasm until 5 years later when I grew and realized that that was a rare sight.
To this day my family doesn't care where you've gone and they've moved on,
but 10 years later im still waiting to see you walk through the front door
But I have to face the truth that im not the little bundle you used to wrapped in your warmth
and as much as my heart longs to still be the baby girl you used to swing back and forth
10 years later the training wheels still aren't off my bike, instead I found one in the rubbish of an old house and taught my self on a cold august night.
When I lay my head to go to sleep
eyes bloodshot red from the tears I shed over and over
traumatized from the day I looked down from the upstairs window watching you drive away
when I blew an eyelash into the breeze and made my wish
shutting my eyes tight with all my tiny little might whispering
"daddy please don't forget me"
Turns out wishes don't come true.
Just wrapped in your protection and warmth
When you used to wake up at all hours of the night to make sure me and my stomach were alright.
Four years later I aged and I grew
Just a little toddler standing at 3 foot 2
You carried me on your feet and put training wheels on my bike
I rode away showing off thinking that nothing could ruin this night
as I came home and realized you were gone, I thought nothing off it
That maybe you just went to the store.
Only to realize 2 months later, that daddy was gone some more
I remember my mother holding me at night as i fell asleep
Only to wake up 5 hours later, hearing the floorboards creak
I squinted my eyes and pretended to be at rest until he walked out of the room
I shook my mother awake the next morning with excitement smiling widely and saying "guess what mommy? daddy came home last night!"
I didn't understand why my mother wasn't sharing the same enthusiasm until 5 years later when I grew and realized that that was a rare sight.
To this day my family doesn't care where you've gone and they've moved on,
but 10 years later im still waiting to see you walk through the front door
But I have to face the truth that im not the little bundle you used to wrapped in your warmth
and as much as my heart longs to still be the baby girl you used to swing back and forth
10 years later the training wheels still aren't off my bike, instead I found one in the rubbish of an old house and taught my self on a cold august night.
When I lay my head to go to sleep
eyes bloodshot red from the tears I shed over and over
traumatized from the day I looked down from the upstairs window watching you drive away
when I blew an eyelash into the breeze and made my wish
shutting my eyes tight with all my tiny little might whispering
"daddy please don't forget me"
Turns out wishes don't come true.