what i can't say

we've never truly spoken,
just typed all night and day.
we ended up best friends,
and now i don't know how to say:
i love you,
you're perfect,
and please be mine,
Te amo,
ich liebe sie,
ily,
and
loving you has saved my life.
i know that you're hers,
but i also know,
that you don't really love her,
it's just a show.
I'm a jealous freak,
a horrible friend,
she's like a sister,
she loves you,
she has you,
and i lose again.