What I Real is Feel

Fuck me Over why don't you
Kill me while you're at it
Make me cry till I'm blind
Trust me, no one will ever mind

I can't believe how heartless you are
Yet I've seen it soo much that I can
I can't believe how you can hurt me
But all the scars are still there

I have feelings for you
I don't give you emotion
I want to get away from you
But I cant, I just can't

I smile at all of it
Helps the barrier stay up
Can't let it get messed up
Cause I don't know how to clean it

I scream interanlly
My insides are shaking
I feel like vomiting from the turbulence
My ear drums are breaking

I don't need my senses anymore
The gift has become a curse
It only makes what I real feel
No typo there, did that on purpose

What I get from the world isn't real until I feel it is
What I feel is the only thing that is real
With its on pulse and voice
It makes it harder to hear the noise

I static charge that I hear and see
Yet as electrifying as it is
I feel numb to plead
Cause there is never any real need

The choice is set
Everyone's placed their bets
When you are marked up
Then you are Ready

Sadly sadistic I am becoming
Words that amuse me
But I can't show it
Cause I don't want nobody to know it

Stone cold
Is still to warm
It still burns like hell
When it gets blood