A Girl Inside My Mirror
There’s a girl in my mirror
Who stands there
Across from me
And stares
And stares
She looks so familiar
Yet I don’t know who she is
Is she from some vague memory?
In the deepest points of my mind?
Or a part of me?
Condemned to stay with me forever?
She mimics my movements
Mocking what I do
Copying my actions
In a way that could be playful
But there is only pain in her dark eyes
Beneath her layers of apathy
Under her stoic expression
There is more to her
More than what everyone sees
More than her outer shell
The bitter crust she wears
The sarcastic remarks she makes
The hard, unbreakable exterior
There is more inside
In her core
Her heart
Something she keeps hidden
Deep down
What is there?
I can’t tell
Is it pain?
Loneliness?
A desperate plea for help?
Or is it a secret?
Kept tucked safely away
In the depths of her soul
A secret she must keep
A secret so very powerful
A secret that could change her life
So she locked it away
Never to hear again
Never to need to remember again
I look at her once more
She stares back at me
Inside my mirror
I raise my hand
She does the same
She cocks her head to one side
Just like me
I study her
She scrutinizes me
Pain is still there
I reach for her
Her fingertips touch mine
I feel cold glass
And make a promise
A vow
I will forever keep her secret
Whatever it may be
For she is inside me
A flash of who I am
What everyone sees
What I am afraid to become
She holds my crushed dreams
My dissolved spirit
My burned optimism
She knows my hopes
My fears
My likes and dislikes
Everything
She is a part of who I am
The girl standing in my mirror
That stares
And stares
Until I am unsure
Of what I am seeing
Who stands there
Across from me
And stares
And stares
She looks so familiar
Yet I don’t know who she is
Is she from some vague memory?
In the deepest points of my mind?
Or a part of me?
Condemned to stay with me forever?
She mimics my movements
Mocking what I do
Copying my actions
In a way that could be playful
But there is only pain in her dark eyes
Beneath her layers of apathy
Under her stoic expression
There is more to her
More than what everyone sees
More than her outer shell
The bitter crust she wears
The sarcastic remarks she makes
The hard, unbreakable exterior
There is more inside
In her core
Her heart
Something she keeps hidden
Deep down
What is there?
I can’t tell
Is it pain?
Loneliness?
A desperate plea for help?
Or is it a secret?
Kept tucked safely away
In the depths of her soul
A secret she must keep
A secret so very powerful
A secret that could change her life
So she locked it away
Never to hear again
Never to need to remember again
I look at her once more
She stares back at me
Inside my mirror
I raise my hand
She does the same
She cocks her head to one side
Just like me
I study her
She scrutinizes me
Pain is still there
I reach for her
Her fingertips touch mine
I feel cold glass
And make a promise
A vow
I will forever keep her secret
Whatever it may be
For she is inside me
A flash of who I am
What everyone sees
What I am afraid to become
She holds my crushed dreams
My dissolved spirit
My burned optimism
She knows my hopes
My fears
My likes and dislikes
Everything
She is a part of who I am
The girl standing in my mirror
That stares
And stares
Until I am unsure
Of what I am seeing