evol:love

love is supposed to be wonderful
breath-taking and joyous
but i can't seem to keep that joy
i told him i loved him
and when i did
i lost it
poof! all gone
and now he's said it too
and it ripps me to shreds when he does
"i love you Jaz"
... what am i to say?
i love him but not in the same way
because it all faded away
"i love you babe, hun, baby"
... i can't say it back.
why do i always lose my love?
my love is evol.
it brings both of us joy and when we finally accept
it rips it out of my hands and leaves me with the lame excuse
"it's not you, it's me"
why must it be so cruel?
where do i start to explain?
evol:love just leave
your making my life miserable
and your making me seem like a liar.
why can't my love be breath-taking and joyous?
why can't it stay like that forever?