I Just Wanted To Breathe

Life raged the pavement swayed
I took a breath to steady myself
One breath just a moment in time
Something to put me at ease
One moment from a myriad of others
Each making you choke
Life pushed and I fell up
Higher and higher
Breathe easy but don't forget to hold it in
Till lungs are burning and each breath stinks
Life stung but I couldn't feel it
This is only what I wanted
The perfect pleasure ever unsatisfied
Up up and away
Rain freezes into clouds that
Get my feet wet as I'm soaring
Far away from what I try to escape
Just hold the pin over there, don't make my bubble pop
Life comes back and reminds me
You've not left the ground, Babe, those ain't clouds
You're just standing in piss
Hey ho now wasn't that fun
The low ever worse, as I'm
Lying on the road testing my fate
There's enough tar in my lungs
To fix the pothole by my ass
Brain cooked with my own gray smoke
Each breath hurts until I get my daily dose
My heart told me I needed to quit
But I should never have started
Sure life's a bitch but now I'm worse then when I began
One pack just to steady myself
One breath that's getting harder
A cough that hacks at my throat
I'm as steady as a noodle and
Bound to leave every half hour to calm my nerves
I'm an irresponsible, no good, half wit, son of a gun
And this was what I wanted
One moment in time that infected my entire life
And still it rages around me