I hope i see you in heaven

it's been five years since the day of your death,
it's been so long since your very last breath,
but i can't seem to forget all the memories we shared.
at least when you were sober you actually cared,
i know you had problems,
but what about me?
did you ever stop and think ,about how my life might be?
and now that your gone i feel i'll never be free,
but i don't blame you for drinking away the pain
and
i dont blame you for my heart thats slain,
but without you here im goin insane.
i hope that one day i'll see you in heaven
but for now i'll live the life i was given