When can I protect myself?

Are you using me?
Am I using you?
Who cares...

Everyone else uses me
When is it my turn?
Never?
I guess so

I dont have the stomach to do it anyway
And I hate myself for that
But I know that im strong willed

All I think about is protecting and helping those around me
I think thats why I feel used sometimes, well all the time

I think that in a passed life i was a guardian or somebody elses warrior
I feel like one sometimes
I'd rather be one then someone who gets pushed away