Non Existent

"It shall be as if i never existed."
Yes, i shall erase myself,
That's the best way.
For i know I'm not wanted.

You cannot push me down,
I'm already on the ground.
Not from being short,
But from being put under pressure.

I need to talk to someone
And it's potentially serious.

"I'm finding a backdoor out,
But i shan't kill myself."
Because there are worse things than death.
I just need to know that you care.

You tell me to hush and wipe the tears from my eyes,
But you'd never ask why,
Why they were there in the first place.
I'd let you,
But you'd never understand.

For you don't know what it's like to be me,
To see things from my perspective.
You don't know what it's like to be pushed so far,
That you cannot possibly recover.

"I'm tired of being what I'm supposed to be."
I'm going under,
Slipping through the cracks...
But you would never know that.

"I live my life as it comes."
But when something gets in my way
I step aside and walk past it,
Or over it, for i cannot face it.
I haven't a thing to say to it so what's the point?

So you can take your sexist remarks and leave,
Take your skate board and get out.
I don't want to hear them,
And i don't want to see them.

Just make me feel better.
Just let me move on.
♠ ♠ ♠
This is three years old; it's finally been put in order.
Hope you understand it.