numb; the wind and the sun

I love how the wind blows in my face,
Leaving me shivering and numb
How it dries my tears
And wipes them clean away from me
How it makes me relax in all those awkward moments
Between you, me and her
And how it seems to engulf me with itself
And holds me close, saving me from the pain
But I still long for the sun to shine and fool me
With the lies of light and happiness
And give me the fakest
But still comforting warmth I long for since forever
So what happens when the sun shines and the wind blows?
I get sick from it of course and still you ask why?
It’s because then, I’ll get caught in between my comfort and my joy
That I’ll actually lose my mind from thinking which way to go.

?Coffee?