Why cant u see?

Everything falling in place right before my eyes,
Haha yeah right but a girl can dream,
I cry silently no tears actually falling,
Im scared and I feel like I cant see.
My heart is pumping blood,
Tho I dont know how when theres a knife thru it,
Theres cold steel in my chest,
Yet no one sees.
One person knew almost every secret,
Now no one does,
Im overloaded with spite,
Yet u still think im that innocent, nice girl.
I smirk at others pain now and again,
Some say I have a morbid sense of humor,
I say of just been thru some things,
What doesnt kill u makes u stronger right.
U were there but now ur blind,
Ur eyes are still there but u can not see,
Everyone else can tell but u,
Why cant u see?