Broken Image

i can try to keep my mind from exploding,
i can't stop my heart from imploding,
the pain tears me apart inside,
the pain is the only way i know i'm alive,
in this life there's no point in dreaming,
i wish i was numb instead of screaming.

i stare at my image and the mirror cracks,
it's not my reflection that looks back,
it's my past, it's my horror, it's my shame,
there's no future for me through this pain,
through the darkness the nightmares attack,
the sun in my life has now turned black.

the devil swirls to life in my darkened soul,
he drags my depression to a new low,
i sit in the mist of my troubled past,
over my future the shadow is cast,
burning embers of hatred start to glow,
strangely this insanity makes me whole.

i know i am destined now to a life of hate,
the dye is cast, this is my fate,
it's not what i wanted, this life i must lead,
i never wanted to make another bleed,
for forgiveness and salvation it's too late,
no more woes of the heart i can take.

i will fight and i will argue and attack,
there's no goodness left and no way back,
this nasty mess is what you leave behind,
what once was gentle is now unkind,
love and compassion is what i lack,
now that my insides have turned black.