Angry Sadness

I am sad
But I am pissed off more.

I don't want to cry
I want to kill

Death seems to be the only prmanent way
But I refuse that!

I don't want to give up
But I need a damn break!

I can only take so much.
But that's a lie!

I am just being lazy.
Yet action isn't working!

But there is no fucking problem!
Answer me that!

I know I am not alone.
Then why do I feel this way!

A house is not a home.
So where the hell do I stay?!

Any answers yet!
None.

I'm not fucking surprised
Incompotent idiots!

I know shit!
But you don't.

You ask.
I tell.

You don't listen
We both nd up yelling.

What is it that goes wrong with this fucking cycle!?
Am I the non-observant one here?!

Will I get any help!
Why the hell not?!

I don't even really need it!
Because I don't fucking want it.

Fuck you!
I don't fucking care!

It doesn't fucking matter!
I don't want to know what the fuck is the matter!

It doesn't fucking matter!