Daddy...

Daddy I know you're dying,
I know that I will be an orphan soon,
I know that you love me,
Even though the state you are in,
Doesn't allow you to express it,
Daddy,
Maybe you will just magically pop,
Out of the misery you are in,
I see the wounds,
That people have put on you,
And if I looked at your heart,
I would see it failing and it bleeding out,
I know you love someone else other than,
My dead mommy,
I know you hated her when she came back,
And started abusing me,
I knew you were dying inside,
Because your only son,
Hated you because his mother was dead,
I knew you were mad,
When he left,
I understood.
I was only four,
But I understood,
The pain,
The hurt,
And the love you feel now.
Daddy,
Can I ask you a question?
Will you survive this?
It's been months.
Months and months and months.
A little girl,
Can't handle this much pain,
I am your little girl, Daddy!
You can't leave me anymore!
You like to do that!
Daddy,
I'm lost,
I shed these tears,
That hold agonizing pain,
That hold hurt,
They also hold what I've seen,
Daddy,
Doctors hurt you,
I don't think I have ever seen so much blood,
I don't think I will ever understand what.
A flat-line means,
Because Daddy,
That's what happened.
A flat-line,
Your heart stopped beating,
Your skin paled,
Doctors tried bringing you back,
But you were happy,
Happy,
In Heaven.
Daddy,
I know you left me because this was for the better,
But you don't understand the pain,
The pain I go through everyday.
Daddy,
You missed my fifth birthday,
I spent it alone and crying.
No one remember,
I went to your funeral that day,
I was taken away that day,
I am no missing the single person,
That kept me strong.
So Daddy,
If you are here,
Will you let me know if I am okay?
If I can survive,
Without you?
Tell me,
Will I drown in the tears,
That I shed everyday?
This is a good-bye,
I guess.
Daddy,
I love you.
Daddy,
I miss you.
Good-bye daddy,

Love,
Your little girl.