sad.depressed.unwanted.unloved.all of the above..

i know you said you loved me
and i know you said you cared,
but these days i wonder,
if i was just dreaming.

those days seem so far,
and are a distant memory,
but these feelings
are the only reminder i have of you.

when people ask me how im doin,
i say
"i'm great. don't worry!"

but when they turn around
i wisper
"i am nowwere near fine"

when friends ask if i miss you
i respond politly with
"not at all. why would i"

but when i am by myself
i tell myself
"i miss you soo much,
it hurts to live."

DEDICATION!!!!
This is from a personel experiance and all of my poems are not pre-written they are always a thing of the moment for wen i feel them i enjoy reading peoples comments and appreciate the support. i thank all my friends for their care, love and support as well but most of i am eternally greatful to those who stick with me through all of the hard and dark times.
thnkyou again to all the secial people in my life!!!!!!