Forget

Why does this seem so familiar?
Like I’ve done this before.
Whenever I start to get these feelings back
I wish I could remember a little more.
The tears that have been cried
The time you have lied.
The constricting feeling in my chest.

I forget the feelings of loneliness,
The feelings of regret.
I forget the feeling of wanting
The things I’ll never get.

Not being grounded,
Floating in the air.
Being blind, not knowing if you’re there

Not knowing what you thought, not even
Knowing what you want.
Not knowing when you’d be here or gone,
Always being strung along.

The cycle of your love game
Is taking its toll on me
I wish you would just let me go,
Leave me be.
Your pain is worse than being alone.