Jet black darkness

Will I ever find the reason to be optimistic?
Cause this pain makes the world outside unrealistic
Missing the feeling of a smile
I just got to find something worthwhile

Watching my life slip away
My fear it’s stuck on replay
Music bursting out loud
My feelings dropped like a mushroom cloud

This sorrow is too personal to explain
I might be just going insane
The consequence of your actions
Makes my pain your satisfaction

We’re all just lost in this place
Waiting for one more chance
Keep trying maybe you’d make it right
But it all goes back to the same self-fright.

Lost in fear
Watching my broken tears
While I’m trying to mend this broken life
While my heart got stabbed with a knife

But life has a cheeky medicine
This involves big amounts of patience
Only time would decide
Weather you should live or die.